Mom is the World to me!

I had been thinking of writing about mum since days!
so here we are to talk about all the mothers out there. The one who struggles for us, the one who works day and night for us,the one  who makes us feel loved, the one who can solve all our problems!
Sometimes I just keep on thinking for how are they so wonderful and so amazing. I just cannot live without my mother. I mean, how can I? 
we normally don't realize the importance she has in our lives,but there are days when this fact hit hard.
I remember once when  my mother had gone out of town and i was there at home searching for every little thing and calling mom again and again for the same. where is that thing? how to make this? where is the iron? where should i keep this? where is the nail-cutter? where do we keep cinnamon?what medicine should i take? OMG ! i was just so messed up without her.
We roam care-free everywhere just because mom is there to take care of everything for us.
she might immediately do whatever she can !she will wake up early just to wake us up! she is the one who thinks about us all day! what must be my child doing? where might he/she be? what should i cook for my children today?
 Isn't she the first person to call, even when you are 5 minutes late ! my mom does that all the time and sometimes i do get irritated,  but once when she didn't call.. i kept on wondering why! It was because i was habituated with her caring! she is the first person i have loved and i am so proud of this fact.

Mothers are brave, brave enough to let you go out of home, and wait for you to come back to that safe place again. they are loving enough to let you do things your way even when they don't like it! they are supporting enough to let you go study out of town even when they want you to be right beside them. They are the only people who will listen to your problems for hours even when they themselves  had a bad day. they are the only one who would sit beside you whole night when you get sick! they are the ones who is going to calmly explain about the mistakes you made.

My mother is my world! there is no one who can love me more than her. 
i remember the day i cried for an hour sleeping on my mother's lap and blurting out stupid and weirdest things, knowing that she would ignore them. I also remember the nights when i feel too lost and the only person i can go up to is my mother( though i don't go!)

They do so much for us..in fact they do everything for us but what do we do for them? Not much. 
Ofcourse,  we cannot match up with their selfless love but then,  we don't even try !
Instead there are times we shout at them, "mom, how could you do this?"." please leave me alone"," i don't want to talk".
This is totally fine, I  guess.  You can get angry on people you love..right? 
Even when i am writing this,  I know I will get angry on her at times,  but let us make a promise that from now onwards. A promise that we will tell our moms that we love them double the times we get angry on them!
How many times have you told your mother that you love her, that she is too important to you that you cannot exist without her.? very less! Even I accept.

So mum..here is this, only for you
i may shout, i may get angry, i wont talk and i may hide. but u know me...i hope u know me. i am too introvert to get rid of my feelings. i am too shy to come in front of you and speak out that i love you.
but u know that i do! thank you for being my mother and thank you for showing too much care for me! thank you for the times you have let me do things my way. thank you for letting me out and giving me freedom to think about my own self. thank u for supporting my decision of choosing my line of interest. thank you for speaking out for me. And lastly,  thank you for being calm.  i am sorry for all the times i get angry(which is way too much). love you mommy <3 you are too great and i am so lucky to have you.

So 3 cheers to all the mothers out there! You are the bravest people on earth.

extract from diary of broken heart

Guys, this is my first blog. Read it and do comment for how is it.

So its been days since our break up, an official break up. Break up on the day we talked after 6 months. Break up on the day we met almost after a year. Was it a good day or bad one? What a funny question to ask. To b honest, it was good.
It was evening and my exams had just finished. My heartbeats used to raise every time i  met him but this was different. I wanted to think about what i would talk to him, but i couldn't. There was an hour left so i tried to be as casual in front of my friends. And there it struck 5:00 pm . the time we decided for meeting. THE TIME. I  was nervous. I was breathless. What would happen? I used to get blank in front of him and this time i could not afford to. There were certain answers i was seeking to. I went to see him. He was sitting, waiting for me. And to my surprise i started feeling normal. I felt confident as i stepped towards him to say a "hi". He did too.  He looked same, didnt changed a bit. I was glad. We went to sit in a cafe.
At first we were quiet, den we started talking in tits and bits. He asked-i answered-silence-i asked-he answered-silence and this would repeat. It didnt feel like we were talking after ages. It felt good. Sitting beside him, sharing things.
We talked about my college, his college, my whereabouts, his college mates, my key chain, my accident, my vehicle , his maths, his jokes, his library, words thay i learnt and would keep on repeating in my talks, his catching of those words, my friends, his  friends, idiotic people and every small thing that came in our brains. We were both so afraid to talk about our relationship status but in between d mundane talks ,we did. He asked me for what i wanted to ask to him.At first, I was reluctant to ask him anything so i just smiled. But later i did ask him " why didnt you meet me the last time you came in town?" He said he was busy. He had work to do and meet his relatives so the one month passed very fast. I asked him further "you did come near my place still  didnt bother to call and meet me?" He said he was with his father. I knew he was lying but i pretended to be fine with his answers. He was still playing that lying game which made me feel that it is somewhere all over between us. So i asked him" do you want to continue the relationship or should we move on?" He counter questioned me " what do you want?" I asked him to reply first and this went on between all those general life talks. I later told him dat i would b fine wid whatever he chooses.so he chose to leave. He chose to break up. And you know what , i was totally fine with it. Bcoz i have had my try on working out between us but somewhere i was tired of it. Tired of listening to his lies and his excuses. I didnt wanted him to lie to me. So i said "okay" . I told him dat we would never meet or talk. He asked " not even friends?". I replied "no, not even friends". he said " but we have grown up together , how can v not talk?" I reasoned him with" if we would talk then that  wouldn't change anything between us . I wouldd still wait for you everyday and you would always be in my head". He tried to be fine with this answer. And we again started up with our general talk. There was no crying, no feeling awkward. Somewhere i didnt wanted to leave and i think may be he felt the same. We had time, much time. And we would not leave until someone told us to. We had very similar taste in music and all so he would usually ask me to listen to his favourite bands and movies. But today when he asked me to, i refused coz then that would remind me of him.he started teasing me like he always used to, saying that i am obsessed by him. Somewhere yes, i was! But that was love. I had missed him the last 6 months that we didnt talk to each other. But there was a silent talking between us those months. We both would get online and still not talk. We both would wait for the other person to initiate . We would get online atleast once to check on. Sometimes when i didnt find him i would get worried. But this had to stop. And yes now it did stop. I m glad. So coming back , it was time to go. He had got a call from home. So we stood up. I did felt awkward that time bcoz i wasnt having the upset feeling. He told me " you will have to change someday". i replied "yes, i will". I once again told him the so- called rules of never meeting .
" i would go away from your life as if i never existed." He remained silent for a moment and spoke " it was nice meeting u". i replied "take care!" Bye. Bye and then he went towards his 2-wheeler. At that moment i felt something.i felt real. I just kept standing. No, i couldnt. I started walking fast towards him so that i could meet him before he goes. He was sitting on his vehicle when i reached him. He asked "what happened?".  I took a deep breath , looked into his eyes and said " i love you!". He replied " sure, i love you." His statement was cold and dead. I didnt anyways wanted to hear it coz i didnt wanted to hear lies and this all would not have happened if he loved me. Washing this thought away, I hugged him. I just felt so good. I hugged him more tightly , said bye and left him without looking into his eyes.FULL STOP

THE END.
The end which would never have a new beginning.

When u have walked a mile with someone it is hard to walk alone but it aint impossible.
Go for it and live life, celebrate it.
And anyways pain makes u feel that u r alive